Diary, sometimes I wonder how I manage my life. I knew that having a baby would change things – but there is a difference between intellectual knowledge, which is somewhat remote, and emotive experience, which is inescapably real.
To the very core of my being I believe that it is best to stay at home and raise my daughter in the way the hubby and I know is best. So bye bye boring publishing job and hello writing career. This is monumentally scary but also brilliantly exciting. I have resigned from my job and I now manage my daughter’s life whilst trying to build my career as a writer, and also… be a good wife, nurture my friendships and do the things that I love, which keep me inspired so that I am able to write. And I revel in it. I love my daughter madly but I refuse to lose myself to the mommyness that comes to dominate the lives of so many mothers. It is a conscious choice that I intend to stand by.
Reading, writing, art, music – my passions – are even more sacred to me than they were before my Amelia was born. The birth of my little miracle has enhanced my ability to experience life and all its glorious beauty. For me, a big part of motherhood is to teach my daughter to love the precious life that she has been given – to live passionately, and to love wholeheartedly and generously. I hope to lead by example – a fantastic challenge.
Bring it.
